"What are you up to?"
"Nothing much."
"What are you doing back nowadays?"
"I don't know, looking for a job...?"
"Do you want to stay?"
"I don't know, I'm not sure...maybe I'll leave again..."
"Then why bother?"
"Because I have to, and I should..?"
"When have you ever done things because you should?"
"I don't know. This seems too crazy."
"What is?"
"Leaving."
"You are not as brave as people say."
"I never said I was."
"Do you like it here?"
"No, I don't. I'm not sure."
"What are you sure about?!"
"I don't know... I..."
"What do you want?!"
"I don't know!!!"
"Then why are you leaving?"
"I... want to see him again."
"But you can't!"
"Why not?"
"It's impossible...."
"....if I don't try."
"This is home."
"This doesn't feel like home."
"Everything you have is here."
"That doesn't mean I can stay here."
"Where can you go?"
"Anywhere but here."
"How?"
"I have a plan."
"Is it going to work?"
"I think so, I don't know..."
"That's not good enough...!"
"I.. I..."
"What DO you know?! You can do better than this..!"
"I can't think."
"You need to..."
"Stop it."
"But..."
"No, get out..."
"You have to..."
"Please, just leave me alone."
"I can't.."
"Go away!"
"You can't hide."
"Let me sleep."
"You have to wake up."
"I can't find a reason to."
"It won't go away."
"At least it will, for now."
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
像你說的
我們在一間酒吧聊天。男生都在抽雪茄，女生在喝紅酒。
忽然，他說：“哪，她來我們家時，住誰的房間啊？”
不是說好了的嗎？應該是睡在他房間吧
..
“我打算讓我的房間給她，然後我睡客聽便可以了！
對啊，之前我跟他是這樣商量過的。他沒有跟你說嗎？
“這樣不是太好，她還是到我房睡吧！我比你早上班，這樣便不會把你鬧醒。妳說好嗎？” 他轉過來問我。
“吓？啊… 其實我睡哪裡都沒有所謂…
你們随便在某個角落給我睡都可以！你們收留我，我已覺得很好了！”
“不行！妳是個女生，又是我們的客人。” 他們一同說。
“對，你應該有自己的空間。就這樣吧！還有，那天我來機場接妳好嗎？”
“她夜機才到，乘搭機場巴士也很近，很方便的，我們一起到巴士站接她，應該沒有問題吧！
之後他們用了一些我聽不懂的語言對話….
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他們兩個都是我夏天在日本認識的。
嚴格來說，我們其實只是萍水相逢。他們一行四人來到日本探我的朋友。朋友說：“一班我在挪威認識的朋友來探我啊~！這個週末我們一起去熊本玩，你要來嗎？他們很友善的，你一定會很喜歡他們！”
雖然，我已經很厭倦認識那種 “見了一次便不會再見”
的朋友，但我抱著一個 “反正我也有空” 的心態，便答應了。我收拾行理是也沒理會太多，而因為我們去玩激流，所以我覺得連化妝的必要都沒有。第一晚，我跟朋友下班後趕到熊本跟他們吃飯。那天晚上，我們一共十二人，都沒什麼聊天的機會。第二天，我們一起玩激流，在河裡游泳。雖然大家都玩得很開心，但也沒有什麼交流。
我友善的抱了他們一下：“今天我要先走了，如果明天你們在福岡的話，我們一起吃飯啊！要不然，保重啦！”
接著，我跟我朋友和他們四個連續兩晚都一起吃飯。就是這樣，我們做了朋友。雖然他們很快便要走，但我跟他們換了LINE
account, 之後也有保持聯絡。
也不知怎麼講起，他們其中一個說：“我們去布拉格，時間恰當的話，你也一齊來啊！”
“好啊~！” 我怎會放過去旅行的機會呢？
然後，我跟他說，“喂，你們去布拉格，他有叫我去啊！很快見到我了，開心嗎？哈哈！”
“還好啦！”
“好像不太啊…!”
“還好，在我世界裡面已經是很高興的啦！哈哈！”
之後，我在計劃的時後大部分的時間都是跟另外那一個朋友一起商量的。所以，他在這一刻那麼緊張令我很驚訝。
---
“…妳自己一個女生，在晚上還是不要亂跑好了… 我來接妳吧!” 然後他跟友人說：
“這樣你也不用趕下班到巴士站接她了…!”
你說得那樣井井有條，誰能夠反對？
友人呆了一下，“妳說好嗎？”
在感覺被照顧跟更被照顧中挑算，我也只能對他說…
“好吧！就像你說的好了…!”
Friday, January 3, 2014
痛愛
我未見過一個比我更愛血拼的男生。
其實，他們去布拉格只中一個原因就是為了聖誕購物。聽說他們在挪威東西很貴，基本上在布拉格所有東西都只是他們平常的三分之一，所以其實我們在布拉格幾乎每一天都有去逛街。還有，我發覺他們對自己的打扮要求都蠻高的，而他喜歡看櫬衣。
“喂，這邊是男裝啊！你們女生的在下一層啊！”
“我知道啊，我是逛完了才上來找你的！”
“哈哈，這麼快？
其實我在樓下逛了半個小時才上來的。“對啊~ 看來我沒有購買欲，哈哈！”
他在挑西裝。試完了後，他走出來給我看。
“怎麼樣啊？
我想我看起來一定是呆了 – 他也太帥了吧！
朋友說：”又是這個顏色？你太多了吧！
然後他說：”也對。還是不好了…!”
他對我微笑了一下，但我還是像點了穴的…
接下來，我們走進了一間有5層的鞋店。
“哇~ 我最愛的高跟鞋啊！”
“哪，你就掉下我了嗎？”
“嗯！”我對他做了一個鬼臉，然後便跑掉了。他也好像沒太理我，跟朋友往男裝部去了。到我買完高跟鞋再去找他的時候，他也已經有收穫了。他坐在一個人的沙發上，等其他的朋友。
“幾雙？
“4雙。你呢？”
我的額頭汗了一下。“我才1雙，你真誇張。”
“沒有啦。你好像好累啊… ”
“對啊，是時差吧。” 想一想，我從日本回家再到布拉格，差不多2個禮拜沒有睡好了。然後來了幾天，每天道到處走，真的有點累。
“過來坐吧..!” 他沒有起來，只是把一半的沙發讓給我了，我也剛剛好能夠坐在他身旁。我撬著他的手，不知不覺在他的肩膊睡了。睡著前，我感覺到他輕輕的親我的額頭。
整天你對我那麼冷淡，為什麼，現在，你又這麼疼我？
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
巧合 // Coincidence
我們吃完了睌飯以後，從墨西哥餐廳離開。
“看來你還真的不能喝太多！哈哈，臉都紅了…!”
“沒有啦….! 臉是紅了，但是沒有事啊! 你看！我還可以跑直缐！”接著，我就在餐廳外面跑來跑去。
他笑著說：“Ok ok, 我知道了！真沒你辦法。”然後他牽著我，說：“好了，我們跟他們一起走吧！他說有一間 piano bar 氣氛很好，一起去啊！”
“嗯…！”
我們走到往舊城的橋上。在半路上，突然之間，漆黑的天空變成了白色。
“看！這麽多白鴿子從哪裏來的？！”
“我怎麽會知道呢？”
這時候，在河的另外一邊開始放煙火。
我驚訝的說：“嗄~！你看到嗎？好美啊！！”
“有什麽好看啊？只是普通的煙火而已…！”
“哈哈，不是你放給我看的嗎？”
“哈哈，對對。我準備了9點30分放煙火給你看的！哈哈！”
“哪那一群白鴿子也一定是你安排的啦！哈哈！”
“你說是就是吧！等一會兒走到橋的盡頭我還安排了一個穿西裝的人送玫瑰給你啊！哈哈！”
我們看了一會兒煙火，然後走到橋的另外一邊。那裏只看到一個丐子。我們互相對望，便大笑起來。
“看來你被諞啦！哈哈哈~！”
“他媽的，我還給他很多錢呢！”他笑著說。
我把他拉近了，把頭放在他肩膀，繼續跟著他們走。也許一切只是巧合，但這巧合也變成了我的童話。
~~~
We left the mexican restaurant after dinner that night.
"Hahaha, you really can't drink that much, can you...! You are all red now!"
"No, I'm fine..!! I'm red, but, SEE!! I can RUN in a straight line..!!" I said, as I proceeded to demonstrate by running up and down the sidewalk.
"Ok ok, fine fine fine... I believe you..!" he laughed. "We're going to go to a piano bar with them. Let's go!"
"Mmm!" I nodded, then I held onto him and started following them.
We were walking towards Old Town, and as we were crossing Charles Bridge, the sky suddenly turned white with doves.
"Oh wow! Look! Where did all these doves come from?!?"
"How am I supposed to know?" he chuckled a bit and said.
I looked towards my right, and saw fireworks going off on the other side of the river.
"Oh my god! Look!! FIREWORKS! They're so pretty!!" I said.
"They are just normal fireworks, nothing to be so excited about..!"
"What?! You mean you didn't arrange this for me to see?!" I jokingly questioned.
He rolled his eyes a bit and laughed. "Yes. I told them that we were going to cross the bridge at 9:30 tonight, and they were supposed to put on the fireworks for you."
"Ohhhhh...! Those doves must have been part of your plan too, huh!!"
"Yes. Aaaannnd I also paid some guy to wear a tuxedo to give you roses by the time we get to the end of the bridge. Haha!"
We watched the fireworks for a bit and then started walking down the bridge again. When we got to the other side, there was only a beggar at the end of the bridge.
We both started laughing. "Looks like you got scammed big time!! Haha!"
"Damnit! I paid him lots of money too, that bastard..!"
I don't know if it was the margarita that made this extra funny, but I just wanted to walk closer next to him. All of this might have been a coincidence, but to me, this coincidence is my fairy tale.
~~~
We left the mexican restaurant after dinner that night.
"Hahaha, you really can't drink that much, can you...! You are all red now!"
"No, I'm fine..!! I'm red, but, SEE!! I can RUN in a straight line..!!" I said, as I proceeded to demonstrate by running up and down the sidewalk.
"Ok ok, fine fine fine... I believe you..!" he laughed. "We're going to go to a piano bar with them. Let's go!"
"Mmm!" I nodded, then I held onto him and started following them.
We were walking towards Old Town, and as we were crossing Charles Bridge, the sky suddenly turned white with doves.
"Oh wow! Look! Where did all these doves come from?!?"
"How am I supposed to know?" he chuckled a bit and said.
I looked towards my right, and saw fireworks going off on the other side of the river.
"Oh my god! Look!! FIREWORKS! They're so pretty!!" I said.
"They are just normal fireworks, nothing to be so excited about..!"
"What?! You mean you didn't arrange this for me to see?!" I jokingly questioned.
He rolled his eyes a bit and laughed. "Yes. I told them that we were going to cross the bridge at 9:30 tonight, and they were supposed to put on the fireworks for you."
"Ohhhhh...! Those doves must have been part of your plan too, huh!!"
"Yes. Aaaannnd I also paid some guy to wear a tuxedo to give you roses by the time we get to the end of the bridge. Haha!"
We watched the fireworks for a bit and then started walking down the bridge again. When we got to the other side, there was only a beggar at the end of the bridge.
We both started laughing. "Looks like you got scammed big time!! Haha!"
"Damnit! I paid him lots of money too, that bastard..!"
I don't know if it was the margarita that made this extra funny, but I just wanted to walk closer next to him. All of this might have been a coincidence, but to me, this coincidence is my fairy tale.
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